It's All Going To Work Out, Sweetie.

Before I say anything, I swear I'm 19, okay?
I'm not ashamed to admit that I am in love with Hannah Montana, High School Musical, and my boyfriend, Kevin.
In one way I am mature; I am trying to grow up. I want to drive, I want to go to college, I want to write so many books, and I want to travel the world.
But in another way, I like my life. I like getting to come home to my parents every single day, getting to have a warm meal, and then coming down the hall to read, write, or talk to a friend.

Speaking of friends, though, I have re-made a lot of friendships these past few months. I've forgiven people that shouldn't really be forgiven. I've tried to be the bigger person in so many circumstances. I've forgotten about how things used to be, because when I think about the past, it makes me unable to move forward.

I wish I would've done so many things, but I'm finished dwelling on them. I'm sick of What Could've Been or What I Should've Done. What about now? I still have time to fix things. I still have time to get things done. But I am trying. I'm trying harder now than I ever have. And that right there is an accomplishment to me. It may not seem like much to anybody else, but nobody else matters all that much. Unless it's my family. And my family includes Kevin and Mandy, yeah.
I absolutely hate it when I disappoint my parents. Or really anybody else for that matter.
I think it's amazing how one moment you can be laughing with a person, and the next, they just seem to hate you.

I know I'm rambling, but it's 9:30 at night, and I've been up (Yes, out of bed) since 7:45 this morning. I'm tired.

I just have to make myself feel better about myself.
Nobody else can do that but me.

Nobody else can make me drive.
I can make my own decisions, thanks.
Or mistakes, whichever you prefer.
I'd like to call it The Growing Up Process.
Man, that sounds like a cheesy movie the nurse shows you in 5th grade. Like the period talk, you know?

I am tired. And I'm going to hit the hay.

Until next time, I'm Lindsay Michelle Laird Mears Nestel Junior. Have a great night.