Crazy Days.

Today was...strange.

Last night, I stayed up late. I just HAD to watch the episode of Secret Life of the American Teenager. Which, sadly, I am obsessed with. I finally fell asleep around 11:00.



My alarm went off at 8:00 this morning, and I swear I pushed the snooze button. I rolled over, and apparently, I fell back asleep because I was woken up by my phone ringing. It was my boyfriend, and when I asked him what time it was, he said it was 9:30. CRAP! I mean, The School Zone opens at 10:00am! There was absolutely NO way for me to get ready in 15 minutes. Because honestly, it takes about 15 minutes to get to the shop. So I talked to Kevin, then stretched and yawned and rolled out of bed. My mom was in her room reading a book, so I hugged her neck and told her good morning.

I went in the kitchen and had some chocolate pop tarts. Yum! I called Dad and asked him why I didn't have to work today, and he said that he didn't need me. I mean, after all, it IS Spring Break, and teachers simply do not care to buy school stuff while on vacation.



Kevin had said that he needed to get to school (he doesn't have Spring Break this week), and school started at 10:00 this morning. So he was on his way. Or so I thought. I was chewing my last bite of pop tart and getting seriously intrigued with Monday night's episode of Kyle XY (which I have also become obsessed with. And yeah, I'm SO upset that it was the last episode ever. But that's a different story.), and I heard three taps. I didn't know where the noise came from, and my dog, Maggie, was sitting by the front door. Once there was a noise, she got up and started to wag her tail. Mom had left the front door open, but not the screen door. Come to find out, Kevin was standing on my front porch at 10:00 this morning, tapping on the screen door.



Which was so sweet, and all. But I mean, I was in my pajama shorts with my hair in a pony tail and no makeup on. Don't get me wrong, I completely loved the fact that he wanted to surprise me, so he lied about having school this morning. Just for me. *sniff*

Okay, so it really didn't matter that I wasn't 100% presentable; I loved seeing him that early this morning. Because honestly, that's early for him. :D



He left because he needed to make a doctor's appointment - something's wrong with his shoulders :( - so he left me in my pajamas after watching Kyle XY with me.



Mom is doing a project out in the yard (garden-wise), so we went out to Home Depot to get bricks to go around the gardening beds and plant soil for the flowers. Then we came home, and I made grilled cheeses for the two of us. While eating lunch, we watched Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. Which is, yeah, the most amazing show ever. :D

I got a call from Kevin at around 3:00, and he asked if I wanted to tag along with the family for a St. Patrick's Day get-together at his Grandma Jones' house. I said yes, pulled on my green shirt (for fear of getting pinched by those from Scotland), and waited patiently for Kevin to arrive at my house. When the family got to my house, his brother, Kyle, was driving, his mom was in the passenger seat, so Kevin and I were stuck in the back seat....with Janelle, the family dog.

We got to Grandma Jones' house at around 3:45, and we just visited with the family. We played Wii and played with the new dog, Stewart (Or maybe it's Stuart. Who knows?) -- who is, by the way, the cutest little thing I've ever seen; he can fit in the palm of my hand! -- Come to find out, they didn't even know that the "kids" were coming. They planned on making corn beef and cabbage for supper, and Kevin, Kyle, and I turned up our noses at that. We all left with Ann, Kevin's mom, to go find something else to eat. Kyle left us because he had company coming over, so the three of us (Kevin, Ann, and I) went out to Chili's for supper. We thought we were going back over to Grandma's house, but for some reason, decided not to. :(

We went back to their house, Ann watched American Idol (I wanted to wait, as it is mine and my mom's show), and Kevin and I watched Heroes. We finally finished the second season!! Yay!! Now I can't wait for the third season to come out on DVD so I can catch up! It was a lot of fun just sitting with Kevin. Spending time with him is fun :D
I told my dad I would be home at 10:30, so we left a little after 10:00 so I wouldn't be late. We walked outside, and the sky was as clear as it could be. One of the things we do is look up at the sky at nighttime to see how the pretty the stars are. I wanted him to be cute and walk out the door and just stand there with me to stare at the night sky. But no, he kept walking to his car, his head down, and his car keys in his hand. He got all the way to his car before he realized that I was still standing by the door, looking up at the sky. He told me to come over by him, so I sighed, and walked to the car. He was standing behind his car, by the trunk, and motioned for me to go over by him. So I did, and he picked me up (which probably wasn't good for his shoulders) and placed me on the trunk of his car. He held me there, and we gazed up at the stars for a few silent minutes. Then he picked me back up (still! Shoulders! Ow!) and placed me on the ground, and he drove me home.

I didn't get home until just a few minutes ago, and I'm not really tired.
It was interesting night, that's for sure.

Happy Crying.

I’m about to go to sleep, and I haven’t done a “Random Thought Before Going to Bed” in a few days. And I was having some random thoughts, so I thought I’d turn on the ol’ laptop and give my two cents. This one is about Kevin.

Coming this April will be our three year anniversary. I am SO excited about this, I can’t even begin to explain how excited I am.

And I mean, it may be completely lame because, well, I’m twenty years old, and I want to celebrate the day that he asked me to be his girlfriend. But maybe lame is my style.

I’ve come to the point where I’m so overwhelmed with love, it’s not even funny. I’ve never felt this way about another person in my life. Sure, I’ve had boyfriends in the past, and no offense to any of them, but it’s just not the same as it is with Kevin. And of course we have our bad days in our relationship, but the good days are beginning to outnumber the bad ones.

I’m beginning to be lovey-dovey with him all over again. Kind of like how he was when we first started dating, and it scared me away from him. I smile every time I see him and every time his name comes up on my cell phone. It is exactly like high school all over again. I get butterflies in my stomach when he smiles. I try my hardest not to be a complete dork around him. I dress up for him; I color my hair for him. In other words…I’m falling for him all over again.

He doesn’t even have to be in the same room, or even in the same town, and I get that goofy feeling in the pit of my stomach that was supposed to fade away two years ago. Maybe that feeling will never go away now since it hasn’t gone away yet.

I think of him all the time, and the things I think about make me smile to myself. Some things make me laugh out loud. Some things make me cry—but it’s a good cry! It’s a cry that means, “I miss the old times and I’ll never forget them. But I’m excited to make new memories that I can miss one day.” If that makes any sense at all.

I’m just so afraid that I will be so overly dramatic and too much into the lovey-dovey stuff that one day he’ll look at me and say, “Whoa. Back up,” and walk out of my life forever. I mean, I’m always afraid of that day when he realizes that he can have so much better than me. I’ve always been told that I deserve the best because I’m a Laird. That’s what I grew up with; that I AM the best. But I don’t feel like I am, or that I’m giving Kevin everything I can possibly give him to make him happy. Because that’s important to me: seeing him smile and knowing that it was me that put that smile on his face.I never knew that someone could love me THIS much. I never knew that I could be THIS important to someone. And I never knew that someone would stick around with me for this long, possibly forever. I’m beginning to thank my lucky stars that I have him in my life and that we’ve learned to love through the hard days.

Anyway, I’m going to bed now :]

-Lindsay

Butterfly Chair.

Today has been a loooong day. I went to work, like most days, but today was just ... off. I felt exhausted after exerting almost no energy. Seriously. Like, I would take about two steps, and my heart would begin to beat faster. I finally had to go to the back room and take a small nap. I'm not sure how long I was back there for, but I felt a little bit better afterwards.

I felt bad because Kevin wanted to hang out tonight, but I just couldn't bring myself to tell him that I was feeling up to it...because I wasn't. Up for hanging out, I mean. I think it was the sudden heatwave Texas decided to have today. It just knocked me out and made me so sleepy! Man, that makes me sound like a weenie.

After hearing Kev's fun escapade at the dentist's office today, I really wanted to hang out with him, too. He called me and couldn't even talk properly. :[ Poor Kev! The dentist had given him shots in his mouth to numb the whole right side and then drilled his teeth until they just couldn't drill anymore. I just want to be there with him when things like this happen. Because honestly, I'd want him there if I had to go through that. It just gives me the heebie-jeebies just thinking about it. Getting shots in my mouth, I mean.

I'm feeling a tad better, though. I mean, my stomach still hurts and I still have some body aches, and that spaghetti we had for supper definitely didn't help my heartburn any...but other than that, I'm in great shape! Maybe (hopefully) tomorrow, I can see Kevin. It being Friday night tomorrow night, maybe we'll be able to go out, have some supper, see a movie, and just have fun. And I won't have to come in as early as I would have to on a week night. I only choose to come home early for the most part on most days because, well, if I didn't, I'd be a zombie woman the next day.

Except, crap, my dad asked if I could work on Saturday.
So maybe I won't stay out as late as I want to with Kevin.

Um, American Idol was pretty much AMAZING tonight, by the way.

I like:
-Danny Gokey
-Adam Lambert
-Allison Iraheta
-Alexis Grace
and
-Lil Rounds
and I mean, of course I like Scott, the blind guy. :D

Goodnight!

Cuddled in Bed.

Kevin's right, you know. I can't go to bed until I post my "Random Thoughts Before Going to Bed" post for today.
So here I go:
As I was watching American Idol with my mom tonight, as I do every week, she got a phone call from her sister. They're seriously like best friends. When my mom talks to her, she laughs out loud so many times. She cries when her sister is sad; she yells when she is mad.

They were talking about holding grudges, and how my mom grew up in a home where it was necessary to hold grudges for long periods of time. She said how she'll get in an argument with someone, and be angry for days, and that drove my dad crazy. My dad has learned how to keep his temper under control (for the most part) and thinks life is too short to hold grudges.

I began to think about it while she was on the phone. I thought how, in some ways, Kevin is exactly like my mom. I mean, he'll hold a grudge for YEARS if you let him. Honestly, I think he has at least one that he's held for six years. I am lucky enough to never have seen him as mad as he said he once was. I, on the other hand, do not really hold grudges. I'm just not that kind of person, and began to wonder last night why, if I'm so much like my mom with a lot of things, am I not like her with this circumstance? If anything, I'm more like my dad with this. Other than I think I've been angry with Mandy for a year for just ignoring me for no apparent reason. (Mandy is my ex-best friend, for those of you who don't know.) I have my days where I hate her so much. But I also have my days where I'm thankful that it happened because I don't think I would be the person I am today if it hadn't have happened. Seriously...I think this experience of losing my BEST FRIEND has opened my eyes; has made me stronger in some ways. I've begun to be thankful for those people around me who love me and who have loved me through the tough times.

Anyway, I haven't been feeling well today. My stomach hurts and I have body aches again. I thought that would all go away. It has gotten better, it just hasn't gone away yet.

I'm going to go to bed.

Goodnight!

Wacky Weekend.

This past week has been wacky...and it's only Wednesday.

Besides stressing out SO MUCH about having to finish my English paper (over the Bible) and my History paper (over black rights), I had a GREAT weekend. I finished my papers on Sunday, thank God!

I spent the night with Cassie on Friday night :] We watched "Win a Date with Tad Hamilton" Friday night, and we began to get a little...weird around 11:00. We got really, really sleepy, so we had to hit the hay. I needed this girl's night, though...I've been having an episode of "I hate doing the same thing every day."
We woke up the next morning at 9:00, and ate breakfast with the family. We went back upstairs, and watched "The Grudge" and "The Grudge 2." Cassie watched the second one from behind either her hand or her pillow. :]

I went home at around 5:00 on Saturday, after watching "Lucky You" :] I had a WONDERFUL time with her, as I always do :]

The rest of the day, I worked on my papers, and talked to friends. I honestly didn't do much. On Sunday, I stayed home and continued to work on my papers. Kevin called me at around 7:30 and while he was on the phone with his mom, she said that she was with her mom. So Kevin asked if we could go, and she said yes. He picked me up by 8:00, and we arrived at Grandma Jones' house....which was FULL of people! They were having some birthday party for a couple of friends that Kevin and I had no idea that was what we were getting ourselves into. But everyone liked seeing us, and I didn't know half of the people there, them only being friends of the family. I enjoyed seeing new faces and meeting new people, though. That's for sure. Kevin and I watched (not to mention laughed) at the older people learning how to play Wii bowling. After a while, they didn't even allow us to play!
I told my parents I would be home at 9:30, so Kevin took me home. I was a little late, but my parents were already asleep...

Now, I have proclaimed Monday nights mine and Kevin's night to "hang out" ... which means we just watch a crap load of movies at his house, or something. The reasoning for this is...I hate Mondays, and this seemed like a good way to make them better. This past Monday, Kevin came over to our house. We watched The Big Bang Theory, and ate burgers and Rotel- my dad's supper that he makes to make Kevin happy. After a while, we began to play Wii. I watched for a while, and played a few games myself.
Dad went down the hall at around 10:00, and Kevin stayed until 11:00. We had a great time :D

Anyway, I have some English homework to do- I have to read Beowulf and then write a paper over it. Good times, good times. Not.

Bye :]

In My Room.

Today's been a long day, and right now, I can hardly keep my eyes open. I just kind of thought of this randomly... Okay...let me explain.

At work today, Dad and I were finishing up a GINORMOUS order that came in yesterday. We STILL did not finish it...but that's not the point. Before we started, Dad left, and ran some catalogs to schools so they could look through them and possibly order stuff from us. So I got online while he was gone, and I began to read old myspace messages from Kevin. Which is one of my favorite things to do. Because I'm a hopeless romantic and his old messages were adorable.

When Dad got back, we started on the order again. We took about an hour, and then took a break for lunch. We watched the last episode of the first season of Heroes (because Kevin has so kindly lent us his Christmas present :] ). Afterwards, we got back to work again. We worked until 4:30. Yeah. That's over five hours all together working today. Which, I mean, we've done this before, and I'm not trying to sound lazy or like a weenie...but dear lord, my shoulders hurt.

Dad left again at around 4:30, and I got back on the internet. I began to read (again) through old e-mails and messages from Kevin. They (the messages) talked about his baptism, his parents, his brothers, our first date, our first week as a couple together, our likes and dislikes, our hopes and dreams, and really just kind of "getting to know each other" messages. You know, the awkward, "Hey I like you" messages that turn into, "Hey, I think I love you" messages? Yeah...those.

As I said before, reading through our old messages is the best. I mean...thinking about how we actually met and started dating in HIGH SCHOOL? It's CRAZY.

He was so adorable in those messages. And when I say "used to" ... I mean he doesn't "use myspace anymore, so he can't send me adorable messages anymore :[ "Anyway, I'm going to start doing this as much as I possibly can. The "Random Thoughts Before Going to Bed" posts, I mean.

So I hope you'll stop by and read them every once and a while.

Comments are appreciated :]

-Lindsay

Possibly the Worst Movie Ever.

So basically I had an amazing weekend.

I'm sorry that I haven't written in about...a month now. But I've been impossibly busy with the end of my first semester (which I later found out that I PASSED ALGEBRA!!!!), Christmas, and my birthday.

For as long as I can remember, I've always allowed the entire week that my birthday was in to be my birthday week. So, let's start out with last Friday. Not three days ago, more like...a week and a half ago.

I had a sleepover with my two best friends: Courtney and Cassie. Cassie came over first, and we began to watch The Others, because I had never in my life seen that movie. We watched it for about five minutes, then became consumed with conversation, as this happens frequently. About an hour later, Courtney showed up at my front door.

We started to watch the movie again, and finally finished it by about...2:00 in the morning. And can I just say...it was the worst movie ever. If you haven't seen it...don't waste your time. And sorry to those of you who love this movie. But um, it totally sucks.

I mean, really? They were afraid of the dead people, and they found out their housekeepers were dead...and then they found out they themselves were dead? Excuse me, but what the crap is that about?

And Cassie told us about this part that we had to laugh at about four minutes before it came on. The main character's (played by Nicole Kidman) husband went to war and never came back, and apparently died. So he's walking through all of the fog (which is never a good sign in scary movies) and she meets him (after swearing she was too afraid to go outside) in the fog, and she's all, "Thank God you're okay!" and he replies, so brilliantly, "Sometimes I bleed," in this thick english accent, and it's HIGHlarious.<-- I totally stole that from Forever Princess :]

ANYWAY.

I mean honestly, she not only begins to tell her children how she smuggled them to death with, um, their pillows? But then she tells them how she killed HERSELF because she was so overcome with morose and guilt from killing her own children.

Yeah. Because that's the stuff that makes a wonderful movie. Not.

So anyway, my friends and I stayed up until 4:00 in the morning...talking. Because we're girls and that's just how we roll. And then we went to bed. We woke up at 9:30 the next morning and saw Twilight :] - This was my second time to have seen it. And amazingly, Courtney loved it. Why is this so amazing? Well, the child hates Harry Potter, so I mean...really.

We walked around, and after Cassie was harrassed by a four-year-old, we left Southlake because they had to get home.

Let's see...Tuesday night, I had a family get-together that honestly lasted for about an hour. I mean, it was horrible. A couple of people showed up, and waited for everyone ELSE to show up, and then they talked and ate cake and ice cream and watched me open two presents and then they LEFT. Because...it was -- OH NO -- about 8:00 and totally past their bedtimes. But I mean, the cake was delicious (kudos to my dad) and I had fun with my parents and my sister...

Wednesday was my actual birthday. Dad took me out on the town :] We took the day off of work, and he took me to The Cheesecake Factory. YUM. We ordered pasta and cheesecake, and I swear I gained about 5 or more pounds. We saw Seven Pounds (with Will Smith) afterwards. And I mean...it was okay. Okay let me tell you about this movie. Basically, he starts to meet people over a span of, what, two months? And he asks them questions and tries to see if they are really and truly good people at heart. He meets a blind guy and makes fun of him. He meets a girl and falls in love with her whose heart is failing. He meets this nice old lady whose...liver? is failing. So at the end of the movie...he takes a really really cold bath and commits suicide, and all of his organs are salvaged because of that cold bath he took to kill himself in. So the girl gets his heart, the old lady gets the liver, and the guy gets his eyes. So the girlfriend finds out about it in the end, and walks up to the not-anymore-blind guy, and looks into his eyes and begins to cry, because...they were her boyfriend's eyes! It wasn't a BAD movie, I just didn't really get the point.

So after the movie, we walked around Southlake for a while. I bought some books and Dad bought me a book, too.

Kevin picked me up at our house at around 5:00, and he took me to P.F. Changs. He had made a reservation at 6:00, but we got there a little late, due to traffic and...lack of knowing where the restaurant was. But we finally found it, and I basically watched him eat because my pasta was horrible. It was too spicy and the noodles didn't have any flavor.

We went to Grapevine Mills afterwards, and he took me to see Twilight. He LOVED the movie. Which was so adorable because...all of the romance and whatnot. When he took me home, we sat in his car for about forty minutes, talking about Twilight. He wanted to know EVERYTHING there was to know about Twilight, and he's even excited about New Moon! Go Kev!

Oh and,

He Went To James Avery :]

I know it's blurry.

But isn't it adorable?

I've been wanting him to get me a charm bracelet for forever.

On Saturday, I had a Mother/Daughter day since I didn't get to see her much on Wednesday. We went back out to Mills, and we walked around. We stopped for lunch at The Corner Bakery, and people-watched. :] My favorite pasttime.

She took me to go see Twilight (shut up!) and SHE loved it, too!!! She wanted to see it, too! She's been reading the books. I have amazing friends and family, I know.

I had a GREAT day with my mom. I miss those days, and love it when I get to have them.

Last night, Kevin took me out to the movies. We went to Tinseltown (we went there for our first date almost three years ago) - (hold your "awww"s until the end) and ate pizza. We saw Bedtime Stories with Adam Sandler because we both wanted to see it.

I LOVED this movie, despite all of the negative reviews it was getting. I laughed so hard, and it ended wonderfully.

And hey!

Isn't that Uncle Vernon?

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\Anyway, after that, Kevin and I played games in the arcade, so conveniently placed in the theater. We played air hockey and basketball, which I so horribly lost both. Isn't he supposed to let me win? I mean, what's the deal?

We then saw Unborn.

Um yeah. Crappiest. Movie. EVER.

I mean, yeah it was creepy and scary and ... gross. But honestly, the point?

Okay. This girl has a pretty normal life, it seems. Then her friend notices something is wrong with her eye, and is like, "Dude, what's wrong with your eye?" So she goes to check it out at the eye doctor. He asks her if she has a twin, and she says no. Then she goes to the place where her dad works, and he kindly excuses himself from his very important meeting, and while all of us in the audience are waiting for him to go "WHAT DO YOU WANT? I was in a VERY important meeting!" (or maybe I was the only one waiting for that) he just goes, "What's wrong, sweetheart?" Yeah.

She asks if she has a twin, and he's like, "You did, but he died in the womb because of the umbilical cord that wrapped around his throat and suffocated him to death." And she's like, "MY umbilical cord?" and totally starts to cry.

And then this little boy begins to haunt her, and she thinks it's HER BROTHER WHO DIED IN THE WOMB what, a month into the pregnancy? So the little boy wouldn't be about 8 years old if it was her brother...

But it drove her mother to insanity that her son had died, so she hung herself in the hospital.

And then she meets her grandmother for the first time, and she had a twin herself. Who died. And the grandmother tried to kill the spirit. But it didn't work.

So basically the grandmother's dead twin is haunting the girl.

Then they have an exorcism, and it kills her boyfriend. Along with everyone else...except for the Rabi, because he "believes"...

But they got rid of the creepy little boy. Who was totally like The Grudge, with that noise that kept erupting from him. And the way his mouth sometimes dangled to one side.

But honestly, it was disgusting. And actually sort of funny.

I mean, what was the deal with that dog?

Okay fine. I can't find a picture of the stupid dog. But really, his head was twisted upside-down on his neck!! I actually LAUGHED.

And those bugs?

Gross.

Seriously. What did that movie have to do with BUGS?

And honestly, the whole time I was sitting in the theater, watching this girl's boyfriend, I kept saying in my head "You brought a snack." Which, you'd understand only if you've seen Twilight :]

So ... that was my week.

And it was pretty much AH-mazing.

Love

-Lindsay